A year ago I would have drunk all the alcohol my heart desired…
A year ago if a man who I was completely unequally yoked with pursued me, I would have justified why it was okay…
A year ago my bible would have been collecting dust….
A year ago I was chasing selfish ambition…
1 year later….
The thought of drinking alcohol again reminds me if I gave in my experience would be 7 times worse than my previous cycle of alcohol abuse…(Matthew 12:45)
The thought of giving a man a chance, who I know I am not spiritually compatible with, reminds me that waiting for the husband God has just for me is not in vain and that single-hood is just as much of a gift as marriage…(Lamentations 3:25 and 1 Corinthians 7:7)
The thought of going even one day without reading the bible shows me how quickly the enemy can steal, kill and destroy my mind…( John 10:10)
The thought of only seeking what I want to do and not what God desires, reminds me that He has a hope and future for me. One that goes exceedingly and abundantly beyond anything I could ask or think…( Jeremiah 29:11 and Ephesians 3:20)
1 year later…I am free! ( John 8:36)
True Blood actor, Nelsan Ellis, passed away July 8th 2017 from heart failure. For many years Ellis was an alcoholic and did many stints in rehab only to relapse shortly after each trip. In a recent attempt to overcome his addiction he quit alcohol cold turkey. Unfortunately, his efforts were actually a detriment. The sudden alcohol withdrawal was too much for Ellis’s body to handle and caused numerous issues such as blood infection, kidneys shut down, liver swollen, blood pressure drop, and a racing heartbeat.
For two years I was an alcoholic. I would drink excessive amounts everyday, gained 23 pounds during that time, and had no realization that my life had spiraled out of control.
Nine months ago I had gotten so sick from the large consumption of daily alcohol that I could not even get out of bed. I cried out to God and said, “Lord, if you heal me from this I will turn my life around and serve you like I know I should.”
I haven’t had any alcohol in nine months and I have completely rededicated my life to Christ. Like Ellis I quit cold turkey. Until, I came across the story of Ellis trying desperately to end a vicious cycle, I had no idea what God had really done for me.
I pray this has encouraged someone to be thankful for everyday that God breathes life into their body. Because of His grace, mercy and love God gave me another chance when I could have succumbed to the same fateful outcome that Ellis did.
God is faithful!
There’s been rain everywhere I go and I have seen so many rainbows in the last few days. God is getting ready to release promises to His children in unique and unimaginable ways! Miracles, signs and wonders are soon to take place!
Hold on and have faith!