While looking through some boxes that I should’ve unpacked a few months ago (I have moved so many times this past year🤦🏽♀️) I came across this certificate of baptism. What I thought was a forgotten piece of paper that somehow has come along my journey for the past 12 years, that day it suddenly triggered the memories of what my life was like at that time.
-I moved across the country to start my family, left everything I knew including a full ride music scholarship, to only realize I was in a verbally and emotinallly abusive relationship. And not really having a way out of it.
-I was 19 and gave birth prematurely that resulted in an emergency c-section. My placenta abrupted and I didn’t see my daughter for 24 hours because I was unconscious most of the time. I had 2 blood transfusions and a list of other things done to get me to a stable condition.
-I had post-partum depression to the extent in which I tried to commit suicide. I remember waking up the next morning after taking pills(percocets) and alcohol and trying to push past the feelings that it was unsuccessful and I still had to figure out how I was going to get through life.
But…one day I snapped out of it. I was still depressed, but I had a decent job and with the help of friends was able to leave the relationship. I stayed on the futon at one of their houses and started slowly rebuilding my life again. A co-worker of mine recommended this small storefront church and I said I would go.
At that time I was barely making it financially and woke up that Sunday morning realizing I didnt even have enough gas to get there. But something told me to check my bank account. My tax refund had came even though I only did it a week ago. So I went and at the end of service the pastor offered salvation and spoke about how this decision can completely change your life.
I believed his words so I went up to the altar. He looked at me and said, “Lia, God can redeem your life and also you don’t have to feel that way about your daughter, God can fix this.” I bursted into tears because if you know about post partum depression it can cause resentful feelings towards the baby. No one knew that I had felt that way. God used him to allow me to see He really is The Living God and knows and sees me!
Wow what a journey! 12 years later and what I thought was the end of life was just the beginning! God has always provided and he continues to perfect his good work in me! I pray that those of you who are saved remember the faithfulness of God! And those of you who are not will reconsider and say the prayer below! If God turned my life around I am most certain he can do the same for you!
Lord Jesus, for too long I’ve kept you out of my life. I know that I am a sinner and that I cannot save myself. No longer will I close the door when I hear you knocking. By faith I gratefully receive your gift of salvation. I am ready to trust you as my Lord and Savior. Thank you, Lord Jesus, for coming to earth. I believe you are the Son of God who died on the cross for my sins and rose from the dead on the third day. Thank you for bearing my sins and giving me the gift of eternal life. I believe your words are true. Come into my heart, Lord Jesus, and be my Savior. Amen.
-Prayer by Dr. Ray Pritchard